I took a vacation last week, in which I learned three major lessons.
I didn’t go out of town. I didn’t leave my daughter with a baby sitter. And I didn’t enjoy a tropical beach. But, I did take a vacation.
Life can get a bit crazy sometimes. I mean, we live in America. We are kind of infamous for being “too busy.” For the longest time, I would pride myself on never stopping! I just really enjoyed hustling and bustling. I thought it was fun, and made me feel good and productive. Well, one thing I can really thank Wesley for is telling me to take some time for myself. It was so bad. He would come home from work and have to ask me “Did you take some time for yourself today?” I would look down and mumble “no.” “Go do something for you for three hours.” he would exclaim, and set a timer on his phone. Those were some very nice times. I am grateful he ensured I had some peaceful moments in my days. None the less, some habits are hard to break!
When a big change happens in my life, I feel like a giant reset button has just been pushed, and I need to adjust my every being to accommodate the newness! Becoming a mother was one of those applied reset buttons…and then the short few weeks later it took for me to become a single mother seemed to just crash the system all together, and I had to figure out how to debug the whole thing. I am glad to say, though, that this year has been an excellent learning year! I have experienced a new energy, and it feels marvelous.
I have been changing. I have been changing in miraculous ways, and I can only give the credit to my Father and Brother. This miraculous change has occurred within me due to the atonement of Jesus Christ, and prayer to my God. I have been able to break through molds I wasn’t even really aware of for a while. But, now I am noticing how freeing it is to break through one layer, realize how good it feels on the other side, and start working on the next! Well, one of my old patterns was “work.” I just believed that whatever I wanted, I had to put in all the elbow grease I could possibly syphon out, and then hope it may manifest itself, but most likely be let down, and have to deal and move on. Well, was I ever so wrong!
Picture something with me here. You, me, your family, my family, and all of our roots, branches, and extensions are kneeling, standing, sitting, talking, serving, and singing in heaven. This was before you and I came down to acquire our bodies. There are billions – maybe trillions – of us. Only a small portion of us would be on the earth at any one given moment, but we all knew how crucial our time was here, so it was celebrated in the heavens. Father and His counselors delegate and direct the angels there on where to go and what to do. They know their roll as they either have already come down, or have yet to, and they revere the plan. They look down on us, ready to assist us at our every call. It is our responsibility to open up a conversation with those heavens, in which they reside, by speaking to Father and asking Him to bless us with the assistance of our orchestrating angels – them. He hears, He delegates, and they come to our aid.
Isn’t it beautiful? Well, I never even conceived that reality – or tried to, for that matter – until this last twelve month period of my life. And, boy, it sure has made a huge difference already! But, I mentioned that old habits are hard to break, yes?
I still get in the habit of trying to do everything I want to do with only my two hands! I recently realized I needed a change, as many prayers were being answered all at once. I needed to take a break from myself, and get out! So, I did. And, after doing so, I learned several lessons. I definitely learned enough to keep writing them down, so they could be better instilled. After coming back from vacation, I would like to share some of what I learned with you.