May I first just say that this whole blogging thing has been quite the journey already!? I really am loving every bit of it. Tonight I was writing in my journal to help me figure something out with myself, internally, and then all the sudden ideas came to me for a blog post! Anywho, what a perfect transition. There was something I have known for a little while now, but was really brought to the forefronts for me tonight, in that in my life – in any of our lives – there really ought to be no blame elsewhere. Let me explain.
Absolutely everything happens in our lives because we want it to. I had this thought pop up in my head randomly throughout the years Why would we live forever before coming down here, and not have a big say in our lives? Well, the more I study, and the nearer I draw to my Father, the more I realize that I – that we – surely had a whole lot more than a little say. Take a few of these facts, for example: God is an intelligent, well-organized being – the most intelligent and well-organized of us all; forever is quite a long time; agency is one of the few largest, most important principles of the universe; and we all innately have the powers of creation within us, or we would not ever have the opportunity to become Gods and Goddesses. Okay, so that all being said, 1+1+1+1=4. Simple as that. I have no one to blame for any harm done to me, in my life, but myself. None of us do.
So, remember how I stated I have been drawing nearer to my God lately? (I mean, what else should I be doing in this probationary state?) As I do, certain things are being shown to me in much larger ways. Tonight I had the blessing of a large impact. It wasn’t necessarily enjoyable, but it did the job. It helped me see what areas of my personality still need mending. I want that! I want to know those things. And I know that the way I needed to see which parts they were was by certain occurrences happening. But, let me get personal where I can, here.
Let me provide you with this small and simple tidbit. The perfect example of blaming no one, but rather taking responsibility for every aspect of life, is that of my most recent trial. For those who may be viewing this blog for the first time, I will elaborate. I was in a marriage where abuse had occurred in multiple ways, and then my husband was arrested three weeks after our first child was born. There is obviously loads more of information, but that is the gist of it. So, why would I take full responsibility for all of that? What about for the abuse? I was still not healed from the last abusive relationship I was in, and I attracted that same kind of man into my life again. And for taking responsibility for being a single mother? Well, without Wesley getting arrested, I would neither have the heart, nor the compassion I do today. I would not have allowed myself to understand and love him the same, and I would not have had the drive to do what I am setting out to do. Once again, tons more information is interwoven throughout, but thank goodness I keep writing then, huh?
Anyway, we would all be wise in knowing that we bring everything upon ourselves in life – the good and the bad. We learn from them both. If you don’t believe that, pray to know why the bad has or is occurring in your life. Do so with an open heart and mind, in faith, and be prepared to receive your answer. There are many reasons why we are here, living the very life we have chosen. It is about time we step up, heal, and change what we need to change. It is my hope that we cease blaming others for anything negative in our lives, and start asking why we are attracting such negativity. What can we learn from it? Or what negative beliefs are we still holding ourselves to that are attracting that into our lives? And, trust me, praying to know why works mighty miracles!