I used to think that some people just had an easy life, and that others had a roller coaster of a life. Well, as I have gotten older I realize that most everyone has a “roller coaster” life. It just depends on their attitude and perspective that determines whether they think of it as such or not. I, for one, have had to experience some serious trials, but through my choosing to be happy, I was able to persevere!
We all have trials, and we will all continue to have trials, but it is our choice if we wish to happily march or dreadfully trudge through them. I am currently going through one of the queerest trials that might be imagined. In fact, it could easily be imagined, because everyone I tell the details to mention that it sounds like a TV show or a dramatic movie. It’s the kind of hardship that makes you wish harder than you have ever wished for anything before that you are in an extremely realistic nightmare, and would really appreciate to wake up at any moment. Yet, one of my best of friends recently told me how I seemed so much happier now than she has ever seen me before! I read somewhere the other day that your trials either make you or break you. I made the decision a while back that I would not be broken; that I cannot be broken. Therefore, I left myself with no choice but to not only endure, but persevere through the toughest of trials that may come my way.
I can honestly say that at only twenty-five years old, I have grown so much, and I would not change anything in my life. I have increased love and genuine empathy for those who suffer, and I would not have such deep feeling for mere acquaintances and recently made friends had I not experienced the most grueling of trials. But, how did I do it? How did I even literally come out of this latest trial alive? I did through prayer…
There have been many praying for me, including myself. People have been praying for my safety for at least a year and a half now. And, I haven’t even the slightest idea of all the different forms of grace that people have been praying to rest upon me, though my spirit can physically feel them all. What a blessing is prayer! But, what have I been praying for that has helped me the most? I have simply been praying fervently for understanding. I had anger and hate and ugliness in my heart. I knew the only way to overcome those despicably black emotions was to first repent, and second try my hardest to know why.
Let me tell you, if there is anything in your life you do not understand, pray for understanding – pray to know why. I testify, for I know, that it works! And you will come out of any personal torment a much better person than you ever were before. Your Father loves you, and He wants you to be the absolute best you can be. That is why He gives you trials. But, you must call upon His assistance – through the grace of Christ – for you to be molded into something beautiful, rather than crumble under the pressure. It is possible. Be humble, temperate, and long-suffering, and you will come out on top. You can do this! Have faith in your Father, your Brother, but most of all, have faith in you.
I say these things in the name of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Amen.